Pain

And there was pain now it pains some more,

I sit alone wondering why I was so sure...

Why at all did I put the red bricks together,

Why did I think they will stand all weather...

Why did I let this heart dream new dreams,

happiness is all but a farce it seems...

Its a lonely heart and a heart in pain,

the tears you cry go all in vain...

I stare at the ceiling I look at the floor,

Why did I think you'll walk back through the door...

You were but around for a few bright days,

I tell myself to put up a strong face...

I tell my heart, learn to never trust,

Stay lonely and in pain if you must...

Ain't no sunshine...

With two yellow roses in my bag

music in my ears and no one to nag

I lift myself up and look at the sun

trying to figure out why I smile at no one

Wondering when I will return that smile

this hurt has stayed with me for a while

This burden gets heavy for me to bear

hurting everyone, far or near

No feeling, no warmth, no happiness exist

there is all confusion, a thick mist

I beg you Thee, to help me sail through

the options are many, but days are few...

Return...

I am nice, I am bad

I am happy, I am sad

I am here, I am gone

I am right, I could be wrong...

I can smile, I can cry

I could see you just walk by

I can win, I could lose

I could fly high, if I choose...

I am the river, I am the sea

Its just tootough to be me

I am hated, I am loved too

I hate the dust, I love dew...

I wonder, I sleep, I run, I walk

I dream, I think, I write, I talk

I look at the sky, I question Thee

Why, is it so difficult to be me...

I am quiet, I am away

I might send no messge your way

Don't be disheartened, dont lose hope

My life, my friend, is all up slope...

I want to be the bird flying high

I want to be the baby who smiled just passing by

Their is but a long way to go

My tears are frozen, my feelings don't show...

I am confused, I am hurt

I've faced a lot and their's more dirt

I might be drowning but, I will learn

I'll forget it all and I will return...

The scar still hurts

The wound still bleeds,

The painful words

The unmet needs,

The smile once glowed

For the love so pure,

The feeling flowed

When we were sure,

The tide then turned

The night and day,

I looked around

And there you lay.

Reflection...

Oh clouds in the infinite sky,
Ye never fail to allure me and I wonder why...

Rushing East when the wind wants otherwise,
making your way, thrusting to break the ties...
A whirlpool like the one inside, I can then see,
pushing everything aside, a force then driving me...

At times moving West, towards the setting sun,
knowing that it is but destiny to be One...
Covering it completely & darkening the sky,
Only to give way to a beautiful morn as I sit by...

At others, I see you as placid as can be,
gently moving, as if the sky were your sea...
Telling me to accept what comes my way,
display fortitude and sail away, sail away...

At times as violent as the sea can be,
sparing no one, whoever it be...
Heavy with water, like I am with pain,
pouring down then, driving me insane...

You've shown me the vast expanse of the desert too,
when I've felt low, on those occasions few...
Like the thirsty traveller searching for an oasis,
I'm left to wonder about it all, death or genesis...

My eternal companion, my aide, my Life...
You're but a reflection of my inner strife...

The message...

I sat in despair, looking at the skies;

it was all dark, no way I could rise...

Doubts about myself, the way I was;

a thousand questions,no time to pause...

I looked back, at the years gone;

thinking, if I'd ever meet the dawn...

The world at pace, moving ahead fast;

as I sit grim, reflecting at the past...

Is it the hardwork, they do that pays?

or is it beyond their meticulous ways?

Is it my destiny, that I am to fight?

Answer me, show me a ray of light...

A thousand questions or maybe more;

in the middle of the sea,find me the shore...

Will this confusion forever prevail?

help me, Oh God, for I want to sail...

And then, the Divine voice I heard;

I was left astonished, my soul stirred...

The answers my child, within you lie;

don't look around, no one can hear you cry...

This is the greatest truth of all;

look within and thou shalt never fall...

I gave each of you a piece of me;

find it in there, thou shalt be set free...

Work to your best, coz that's all you can do;

for the world shall leave you with choices few...

Work and you shall be rewarded well;

for the eyes of truth, everywhere dwell...

Innocent, as a child, I questioned Him then;

is the world always fair to men?

One last question I have Oh Lord!

what if I work, and there is still no reward?

The ultimate assurance then, just came by;

as I saw the white dove , across the sky...

Reminding me of the presence Divine;

this time, my child, you shall surely shine...